Judge not…

The levels of integrity,compassion, remorse, kindness, love and generosity among other things... differs greatly from person to person...Yet it’s the complete understanding and acceptance of this simple truth that often eludes me causing me misery and utter dissapointment.

I try not to judge because I don’t believe it is what I should do but it’s only "easy" relativly speaking not to be judgemental when one is not directly or indirectly involved.

Of course life without a challenge is no life at all so naturally its the “hard” that I strive and struggle to achieve... in pursuit of my completeness.

When one door closes..

It’s too short a time to make sweeping statements about my new found freedom but I’ll say this much.. If you’ve worked almost all of your adult life and can afford to take a break ( long enough not to qualify as a holiday but rather a short change in lifestyle then my god do it… its worth a take... ) Of course I now follow another type of routine… one can never quite escape routines altogether…but its one I enjoy .. I also have no clue how long I can afford to live like this but pray that its long enough .Its not all fun and games either as I work harder now than I ever did .. doing household chores and cooking etc.. but that’s only because I’m spending more time in my home and my eyes see more than they did before. I’m reading too, something I never found the time to do much of before plus I‘ve embarked on some new recreational activities….. taking my mind/body where its never been before ...well all in my own time… as my body is apt to complaining a little too loudly at times and my mind well she’s just a tad awestruck by so much freedom it’s a lot harder to keep her in check these days.. but all in all….
It ain’t half bad.

ps: having more time to "bond " and raise my boy has now taken on a whole new dimension too ... but that deserves another posting all on its own... if and when I reach a stable level of understanding or maybe before that.. simply to maintain my level of sanity.