Wannabe

I want to be your friend.. but you're not too keen I can tell. The reasons are pretty clear to me but I was hopeful that I could obliterate them. On the face of it its a juvenile engagement but it goes way deeper than that. It transgresses my prejudices and your limitations, its crude , harsh and extremely venomous .. but it lures me none the less.
There are limitations in what I can say or do.. it fascinates me as I tow the line.. scares me too because its a thin line and I'm bound to falter.. if I do I'll lose you- my friend, I wish just this once there could be a forever but forever is just a word ,I know.. still... don't want to have to lose someone as precious as you.